“my feet will want to walk to where you are sleeping but I shall go on living.” ― Pablo Neruda
This is the most difficult letter I have ever written…
My fingers are shaking and can not find the keyboard , I can no longer see the monitor clearly since I have been crying since last night.Everything is foggy.
There is a common saying that everyone in the animal rescue community would say in moments like these;
”We can not save them all…”
This phrase denotes our ultimate weakness as human beings facing the challenges of reaching out to an animal or to someone in need.
We can not save them all…
Each time,knowing well we can not save them all, we take this challenge , hoping , praying and doing what we can ; our BEST.
But there are times when even our BEST or even the best of the best fails.
BEAU ; the most beautiful cat that could ever live in this world and certainly loved by everyone around the world passed on 21.12.2012 leaving us with a huge heartbreak.
BEAU after being transferred to the clinic in Europe , was diagnosed with more than 1 serious infection ; 2 strands of bacteria ;pseudomas aeruginosa and proteus miabilis and widespread fungi that had caused his post-op wound to go into necrosis.
The infection as we had shared through updates had caused him lose his frontal bone by 6 mms.
At first ; it appeared like this could be undone by fighting the infection and fungi and reconstructing the bone on the region which would serve him as a support to place the nose.With this intervention,he would be able to breath through his nose and his respiratory tract would be closed to other infections.
This was a race against time as the bacteria had penetrated his bone already through the gap and they were rapidy destroying the bone tissue.The doctors faced 3 challenge at a time ;
1- They had to fight against an antibiotic resistant type of bacteria ; no known cure existed except 1 rare case where a medicine that was used for humans worked.They estimated his chance of beating this bacteria by 1 %
2- They had to eliminate the bacteria as rapidly as they could as the bacteria was in the process of eating Beau’s bones literally.By each day the bone got a bit thinner . Each day the antibiotics did not work meant a bit more pain for Beau.
3- They had to keep Beau’s general state at top.
We have decided to take this 1 % minimal chance of survival as we had faith that nothing happens without a reason and we had not come that far to give up and lose the fight.
For days , we held our breath and we hoped for a miracle to happen .To hear that the new medicine worked and that we could go forward with the operation.
Sadly this never happened.Beau stopped eating in the last days and the consultations showed that the bone continued to go thinner.
The medicines were not working , the enemy was stronger.
This would eventually and quiet rapidly lead to a hole that would leave him open to many risks or cause him to die in the most terrible pain.
We had to let him go and spare him the challenge of a painful death.
No words are enough to express our grief.
Beau now rests in the most beautiful place our friend lovingly carried him for his last journey.An angel will be watching him there , carrying his light to other life forms that will forever be a part of his soul.
We thank you for letting him feel that he was loved and supported in his last days and for giving us the opportunity to offer him the best treatment options out there.Your loving support was the first and the last kindness he felt in his short life…